Forked road.

[Billyman]

Now I don’t like to talk about my personal business very much but I thought I’d clue you in on some stuff.

I find myself a little more bitter now-a-dayz, more so than normal, and a little angry. I live in a multi-directional world just as you do. Life takes you here, it takes you there. You’ll move up and down, forwards and backwards, and do some side stepping along the way.

I’ve been moving in all these directions all my life. Sometimes experiencing an old experience, other times, facing new ones.

Recent events in my life aren’t new, I’ve been there (here) a few times but it seems to never make it easier to deal with.

There is no more Jojo ‘n’ Billyman.

It isn’t a bitter break up or anything of the sort. No shit flinging, no bad mouthing, no stab wounds. She still visits, calls me from time to time and so forth. We still get along great, just as we always have. She just wants to live her on life, without commitment, and I have no choice but to let her go. That doesn’t mean I’m happy about it, it’s just….the way….it is.

I just haven’t gotten use to the overly quite house yet. Funny how one starts to miss the annoyance of the phone ringing when her mom calling constantly. Funny how one can miss hearing “take out the trash”. Funny how…………………….it’s all just, funny only I’m not laughing.

I’ve pissed off a few here on THT and in IRC so let me take the time to apologize for that. I’m not making excuses or anything for there was no excuse. My mind will grow more clear in time (I usually snap back fairly quickly) so I’ll become once again just plain old “asshole” as appose to the “fucking asshole” I have been. :)

I’m not looking for advice (I know how to handle it, it just takes time). I’m not looking for your pity. I’m not even looking for forgiveness (to those whom I’ve pissed off), I’m just babbling on about the thoughts in my head at the moment.

P.S. Hugs are ok but no ass grabbing unless you really mean it. :p

[Mudflap]

Tough break guy. Let me know if ya wanna go out for brewskis and bad mouth wimminz. We've done that before.

Who got custody of the critters?

[Barbie]

I'm sorry Billy.

xxoo

[Cruise Director]

I'm not going to give you any pity. I'm not going to feel bad for you. I'm going to stand here and let you know that I'm your friend and that I'm glad you are taking as positive a view of this as you can.

Life throws us lots of curves. Heartbreak and realignment of the soul seems to be one of the bigger ones and a true judge of a person's character is how they handle the turns in the road. And who knows if this road might not make a complete u-turn and things could work out? I sometimes wish my forward view was as strong as our hindsight, but where would the adventure be in that?

-Cruise

[Billyman]

Originally posted by Mudflap
Who got custody of the critters?

The critters:

Well naturally, Tico, Princess and CJ were/are mine period. Pepper and Weed were/are mine anywayz. Chase was “given” to me after Jo decided she no longer wanted her…..so mine too (Chase has had a litter. Anybody want a kitten?) :p

Only fella left was Boss. She took him when she left to stay at her moms and the poor fella was miserable. He couldn’t get on the furniture, Jo’s mom would have a conniption when he pee’d on her outside bushes and get scolded for it by “mom”. He wouldn’t eat, he wasn’t chipper, he was in prison. (he was raised a lap dog but no lap for heem.) :(

Jo would add another 16 miles to her mornings and 16 more in the afternoon to drop him off and pick him up here because her mom would not allow him to stay in the house unsupervised.

When Jo and I had the final “talk” about the relationship, I told her that she would have to take Boss with her and not to leave him here any longer under any circumstances. She and her mom would have to suck it up.

I wasn’t just being an ass people:

I explained to her that I couldn’t bare to see him tossed about, abused and ignored as he had been. It wasn’t fair to me and especially him.

You see, for the past seven months, I cleaned up the shit when housebreaking, I took him out, I played catch with his favorite toy (even when I was too busy), I ran around with him in the yard, I fed him, I was the last person he saw in the morning and the first in the evening, I taught him to sit, I taught him to stand on his hind legs, I made him “my little buddy……………..(Jojo did what she could when she could, just a conflict of schedules really and she was/is extremely busy with school).

Basically, I just couldn’t (emotionally) put anymore heart and soul into that dog than I already had knowing that he too was going to be stripped away from me. I just wanted him gone at that moment.

Jo, loving boss as much as I and confirming his unhappiness and imprisonment, and asked me if I wanted him….











You outta come see my dogs. Happy they are. :)

[ms. bing]

i commend you for taking on boss. that's much the way i ended up with majick, who is my sweet, huge rolie polie puppy and i couldn't imagine life without her, even though i was very much against keeping her in the first place.
anyways.... now that you're single...
*wink*

[Pianomahnn]

Is this a bad time to call you a fag? :p

[Mudflap]

One of you L33T coders needs to program for us a virtual titty bar. We'll have virtual T&A all up Billy's face for hours. Virtual Benjamins will be shoved into garters at will. Virtual liquor drinks and draft beer will flow like Niagra Falls. Get to it.

[Cruise Director]

Is there still no sex in the virtual champaigne room?

[Billyman]

Almost a month later and still I find myself shedding tears.

I....

1--need her back

OR

2--Need to get laid real bad.

Who's game?

[MAC]

try getting laid and let me know how that works out

[Koliedrus]

Shhh! He said advice, dammit!

[Billyman]

No he didn't.

I just wanna know who's going to help me get laid or who is going to lay me.

[PB]

Sorry, can't help ya there....

Go out... ask someone to dinner or something.. you may not need to get laid or you may not need her back.. you may just need some companionship...

I'd be thrilled if you had her back... but... that's up to yous guyss.. not me.

PB

[ms. bing]

yous guys?
what's up pb, you denouncing your texan-ness?
it's up to ya'll.

this is the part where i should volunteer to help billy out, but i just can't bring myself to do it with a straight face.
nothing against billy, but lately i can't think of sex and keep a straight face. it just all seems so radically funny to me. the chase, the lengths we go to, the aftermath.... it all seems really hilarious in a darkly ironic sort of way.
i think companionship, time and friends will help you more than either of the above solutions you posed to your problem. and lots and lots of "you" time.
if you get laid, well, then all the above darkly ironic humor comes into play.
if you get back together with ms. jojo all the problems you had when things left off will still be there waiting.
no easy answers. you just have to give it time and weigh your priorities on a daily basis.