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[Billyman]

As of right now sitting before this thing, I am blank.

Not much of a thought in my head. At times like this I can read anything and have no emotion of it once so ever. If it's sad, I see it that it is such but have no emotion either way. If it's joyous, I recognize it for what it is, I just don't feel joyous too. If it's a serious matter, I just throw it over my shoulder or let it fly over my head. Still no emotion. Just blank. Now I'll be back here in a few hours and hopefully I can process and feel the information before me. We'll have to see. For now, I need to ponder in the shower for a few.

Do you ever get like that?

[MuffyTheVampyreLayer]

Yep. When I take some antidepressents I get so apathetic I really don't care about anything, it kind of sucks - I like to feel, even depression is better than nothing.

[Escape Artist]

Yup, fairly common. :(

[jules]

:\

"All the time"?

[disturbed]

sings "because I got high, because I got high"

[laure311]

Originally posted by MuffyTheVampyreLayer
Yep. When I take some antidepressents I get so apathetic I really don't care about anything, it kind of sucks - I like to feel, even depression is better than nothing.

wow... that sucks. im sorry. what are the anti-depressants that you're on called? because it's so different for me... as of right now. but maybe over time that'll happen to me too. because i haven't been on them for long... maybe a little over a month. hm. *rethinks this whole anti-depressants thing*

[mute]

I see it, but look the other way cause I know I can't do shit.

[MuffyTheVampyreLayer]

Originally posted by laure311
wow... that sucks. im sorry. what are the anti-depressants that you're on called?
I'm not on the ones that make me apathetic anymore - the worst was actually prozac - when I took that I couldn't be bothered getting out of bed to sit my exam. Had problems with Aurorix, arapax, dopemine as well. It's a bit hit and miss finding the right medication, but finally I'm on one that dosn't make me fat or apathetic. Yay.

[MAC]

juxtaposed

I wonder how to explain all the things I think of that I DON'T discuss here. The feelings I don't delve into. The sources behind the posts. My secrets, that I hint to but never admit.

or

All the stuff I really shouldn't say that sometimes pops out anyway. The crap on the front of my brain that slips right out my fingers.

so be it

blank isn't really blank at all and sharing nothing isn't the same as not having anything to share

[Billyman]

I'm past it now. Finally I can absorb again. You all need to understand something. I'm the moodiest bitch you've ever seen. At time's I am satan with PMS. At others I am the moth that keeps beating it's head against the light bulb for reasons not known to me. I am an eagle soaring across the landscape looking for pray and sometimes...perhaps...a lover. I am a puppy dog looking innocent enough to be patted on the head just before I chewing your new shoes just because I could. I am apprehensive, I am kind, I am mean, I have a rotten black heart, I have a great big red one, I am pessimistic, I am optimistic, I am real, I am a realist, I am sad, I am happy, I am lathargic, I don't worry much about anything............................no need to note them all.

It's just weird...that time, at the time, of this threads beginning. I wasn't unhappy, I wasn't depressed, I didn't have other things on my mind. I was boring, I was blank.

But hey, it happens. Not to worry, Billyman's back. ;)

[Mudflap]

Yeah, yeah.

<center>You're a bitch
Your's a lover
You're a child
You're a mother
You're a sinner
You're a saint
You do not feel ashamed
You're our hell
You're our dream
You're nothin' in between
you know we wouldn't want it any other way</center>

[Billyman]

A song perhaps. K, it'll do.

p.s., nice chicken

[Koliedrus]

If you're trying to get a thought out and can't find one, it's "Writer's Block".

If you have too many thoughts and need to shut off the volume, it's "Zen".

Constipation or the squirts.

Look at it this way. People on either extreme pay to get closer to the other. Both ends ultimately find it most comfortable in the middle. With a magazine.

*ahem*

If you blank out on your own, check your wallet and smile.

Say "Omm".

*click*

Gotcha.