happiness

[gone~away]

i am happy.. this is definetely a rare occasion.. the last few days.. everything seems just a little sweeter

i don't mean im smiling.. or that my every moment is bliss.. but beneath the tons of shit im going through...

...beneath all the worry, and self doubt.. i am happy... beneath all the anger and humiliation... i am elated.

its strange, odd, lunacy even... and it leads me to introspection almost as quickly as a few tokes http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/biggrin.gif

my life is in shambles in many areas, i have little money, i am at the whim of a new province.. my girlfriend's mom is a fucking lunatic, and my gf is inconsistent at best.. i work at a fucking quizno's and haven't graduated from high school..

and beyond all of this i find the silver lining, where i never could before.. a cloud has been lifted.. and things have gotten worse..

i find myself saying hello to people in the streets, something i've never done before.. i smile, consciously, but its better than before... the cause of all of this is unbeknownst to me.. i mean i have an inkling that it is related to my move, and the fact that im near larissa... but when i stop and think about it that all hasnt gone too well... i really should be dissapointed with all of this.. the impression i was hoping to make on her mom just did NOT occur http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/biggrin.gif (i was after all asked to leave and given fifteen minutes to pack in the middle of the night)

i should be pissed.. and though im constantly worrying about things with larissa, im not frantic like i normally would be in this situation...

and so i think im losing my mind http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/biggrin.gif

but if this is losing your mind then perhaps it aint too bad... if life is no longer a constant burden where people look at you and lose their smile or ask you 'what's wrong?' as though you haven't heard THAT thirty times in a day... then hey, renew my subscription to this 'happiness' shit...

brain cells are of little use if you are soaking them in brine.. http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/biggrin.gif

this is what i felt like saying, i hope that this rambling post can in some way be of use to you all

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[Pianomahnn]

Am I your silver lining?? http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/smile.gif

I'm glad you're happy. You should be. You've overcome the bitches and bastards (both human and non) to see the good (or lack there of) in life. A task only the strongest can accomplish.

Enjoy all you have, and all that you don't. You're a smart lad, and everyone knows it.

Keep it real. http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/biggrin.gif

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[zoey]

i'm glad you're happy, stu http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/smile.gif

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[gone~away]

um...

ok http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/biggrin.gif

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[Pianomahnn]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by gone~away:
um...

ok http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/biggrin.gif

[/quote]

You and your attitude. I'm getting a little tired of it young man. http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/tongue.gif

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[gone~away]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by Pianomahnn:
You and your attitude. I'm getting a little tired of it young man. http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/tongue.gif

[/quote]

as i seem to recall you are a) younger than me OR b) my age...

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[Deadpool]

Your overuse of smiley faces is disturbing.
*runs away*

[Buddha's Penis!]

hi there. who was it that said "love" again? hmm.

glad to hear it, my pugnacious ferry-riding friend. i too am as happy as several clams. also, on an even lighter note, bc is really nice in the spring.

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you don't know anything until you know everything.

[Rabble Rouser]

Glad to hear that you are able to find happiness in your life despite your shitty circumstances. I wish I could do the same...I admire you for being able to look past the negative and see the good in life.

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[VenoM]

gewd to hear http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/biggrin.gif

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[Koliedrus]

GA, your ability to find happiness in the midst of turmoil is enviable. Your sanity is not at issue. The circumstances immediately before us need not sculpt our nature.

I once mentioned to you that I hoped your nickname was just that; a nickname.

I'm truly pleased that you aren't Gone~Away.

[MAC]

Remember this happiness when you start feeling low again....
there's a lesson to be learned and its all about you.


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Don't shake the devil's hand and say you're only kidding.

[SexKitten]

reading that made me happy http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/smile.gif I'm going to start smililng more

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<FONT COLOR="blue">Meow</FONT c>

[melon]

Im not very happy.
because i think i have testicular cancer.

my testicular cancer makes me sad.

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may the posh be with you.

[Koliedrus]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by melon:
Im not very happy.
because i think i have testicular cancer.

my testicular cancer makes me sad.

[/quote]

Since Cancer SUCKS, Mrs. Kol has wisely instructed me not to make offhand remarks regarding melons and swollen testicles. Neither will I append your nickname with "oma" since that would be in poor taste. Nut surgery won't kill you. (Wanna see my scar?)

See, GA? Things could be worse. A LOT worse.

Melon, get to Lessons and we'll discuss this further.

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[melon]

i dont think my suspected testicular cancer would make a good lesson.

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may the posh be with you.

[Dragon Lady]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by melon:
i dont think my suspected testicular cancer would make a good lesson.

[/quote]of course it is a lesson...life is a lesson..when you quit learning you die...i have had cancer twice..it will 'not' get me...it will not get you...you have to fight, fight, fight, that is your lesson for today..!!



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deal with it

[Deadpool]

Everytime you turn on the TV to watch friends, you quit learning.

[Koliedrus]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by melon:
i dont think my suspected testicular cancer would make a good lesson.

[/quote]
I disagree. Everyone here has reproductive organs. A substantial number have testicles. I (for one) would like to know what you're experiencing. What tipped you off? What are your options?

If you think your situation is not a life lesson, you're highly mistaken.

Teach us, damn you! Don't make me go to WebMD on another quest!

[abs0lutionCFH]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by melon:
Im not very happy.
because i think i have testicular cancer.

my testicular cancer makes me sad.

[/quote]


i thought i had testicular cancer once, turns out i just needed to wash the lil guys http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/frown.gif

[Mudflap]

<FONT COLOR="Orange">Larissa has a sister, right? How old is she? What does she look like? How well is her eyesight? How big are they?

Answering my questions will make you happy.</FONT c>

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