PB
04-29-2002, 02:25 PM
Yesterday I washed you from my sheets, why can't I free you from my soul? Why isn't it that easy to just remove the stain that you have left upon my heart? Can't I just be happy with me for once and stop caring what you think. can't I just sit here at my desk and smoke my cigarettes until the pack is empty and I gripe that i smoke too much on my way to buy more.
Someone told me that you loved me dearly. I pray that she is right, but inside maybe she is wrong. Time will tell. Your boss told me that she is going to meet your family, a scab is removed and begins to bleed once again. The burn on my leg, lets the pain seep from me and I watch the blood and laugh as insanity sets in.
How did I get here? How do I find myself eating stale crackers dipped in coffee as I battle with sleep so that I won't dream of you. When I fall apart where are you? In the arms of the enemy you lay quietly thinking man I am happy with her, what was that girls name that I spent part of my life with again?
I went to the doctor friday hoping they would find a problem so that i would be able to escape this world without having to admit i had the balls to do it all along. I look in the paper for houses and jobs in a place far away from those undying green eyes and long lashes. I welcome happiness into me, but yet feel like I am watching you ride into the sunset thanking me for showing you how good it can be, so that you would be able to give it to someone else.
i needed to talk about her today. i needed you to listen as i begin to set her free. i needed your hand to hold as i prayed for forgiveness to a god that i do not remember. i need you to wipe the tears as i finally let my friend rest. i'm wearing her perfume today the scent is forever stained into my senses of what matters the most to me. It is places next to the scent of your skin, and even the smell of your breath in the morning. A scent that will never be forgotten, but one I wish i hadn't worn today. I am filled with memories.
What happened to the good girl? what happened to the life I deserve? What happened to my happy ending? what happened to my friend who promised to always be there, oh yeah he's out with the future right now, please leave a message after the tone! You asked me to go somewhere, you didn't show up again even after I waited for hours. my mind saying to leave, but my heart scream please don't let me down. the lead on the pencil keeps snapping when i write your name. maybe i shouldn't write it anymore.
PB
April 29, 2002
Someone told me that you loved me dearly. I pray that she is right, but inside maybe she is wrong. Time will tell. Your boss told me that she is going to meet your family, a scab is removed and begins to bleed once again. The burn on my leg, lets the pain seep from me and I watch the blood and laugh as insanity sets in.
How did I get here? How do I find myself eating stale crackers dipped in coffee as I battle with sleep so that I won't dream of you. When I fall apart where are you? In the arms of the enemy you lay quietly thinking man I am happy with her, what was that girls name that I spent part of my life with again?
I went to the doctor friday hoping they would find a problem so that i would be able to escape this world without having to admit i had the balls to do it all along. I look in the paper for houses and jobs in a place far away from those undying green eyes and long lashes. I welcome happiness into me, but yet feel like I am watching you ride into the sunset thanking me for showing you how good it can be, so that you would be able to give it to someone else.
i needed to talk about her today. i needed you to listen as i begin to set her free. i needed your hand to hold as i prayed for forgiveness to a god that i do not remember. i need you to wipe the tears as i finally let my friend rest. i'm wearing her perfume today the scent is forever stained into my senses of what matters the most to me. It is places next to the scent of your skin, and even the smell of your breath in the morning. A scent that will never be forgotten, but one I wish i hadn't worn today. I am filled with memories.
What happened to the good girl? what happened to the life I deserve? What happened to my happy ending? what happened to my friend who promised to always be there, oh yeah he's out with the future right now, please leave a message after the tone! You asked me to go somewhere, you didn't show up again even after I waited for hours. my mind saying to leave, but my heart scream please don't let me down. the lead on the pencil keeps snapping when i write your name. maybe i shouldn't write it anymore.
PB
April 29, 2002