Kayla
04-18-2001, 10:25 PM
When i wrote this i wasnt really feeling suicidial..just upset..
MY FINAL GOODBYE
How do you say goodbye,
When you know you're gonna die
Do you stay quiet and play it through
Not letting on the pain you endure
How should you feel, when this is the last time
Christmas will come around when you're alive
Should you just hate and tune everyone out
Sit alone in your corner and pout
Or do you express all of your love
To all those you love before you go above
Fantasies come true in such wicked ways
Only this life it's my life to pay
Obsession with death has always been
Impatient with life can't wait till the end
Now it is here and I'm very afraidThe door is
locked and my dues have been paid
Maybe in these last minutes I can learn to live
To learn to love, to learn to give
I sometimes lie and think about my death
How people will react after my last breath
I feel no sadness through me
But rather through them
Their utter sadness of how I might have been
I cry many tears and struggle to live
But I know I'll be dead in this game I won't win
My greatest fear is to die alone
With only a priest to bury my bones
What my future holds, I guess I won't know
It hurts me to think, so I try not to do so
I'll never see the day I say "I do."
Or feel love the way I want to
So now I must say my final goodbye
To everyone I love, before I must die
You know who you are, you know that I care
You know what was behind all my empty stares
You know my love, you know my pain
You know how I struggled to not go insane
You know how I think, you know how I feel
You know how I hate, you know what was concealed
You knew what to do when I felt all alone
You know how I felt deep down to the bone,
I wish for you to see life through my eyes
How I struggled to live, how I struggled to cry
But now I must end with a regretful sigh
And to all those who care,
This is my final goodbye.
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Here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded...you don't see me.
MY FINAL GOODBYE
How do you say goodbye,
When you know you're gonna die
Do you stay quiet and play it through
Not letting on the pain you endure
How should you feel, when this is the last time
Christmas will come around when you're alive
Should you just hate and tune everyone out
Sit alone in your corner and pout
Or do you express all of your love
To all those you love before you go above
Fantasies come true in such wicked ways
Only this life it's my life to pay
Obsession with death has always been
Impatient with life can't wait till the end
Now it is here and I'm very afraidThe door is
locked and my dues have been paid
Maybe in these last minutes I can learn to live
To learn to love, to learn to give
I sometimes lie and think about my death
How people will react after my last breath
I feel no sadness through me
But rather through them
Their utter sadness of how I might have been
I cry many tears and struggle to live
But I know I'll be dead in this game I won't win
My greatest fear is to die alone
With only a priest to bury my bones
What my future holds, I guess I won't know
It hurts me to think, so I try not to do so
I'll never see the day I say "I do."
Or feel love the way I want to
So now I must say my final goodbye
To everyone I love, before I must die
You know who you are, you know that I care
You know what was behind all my empty stares
You know my love, you know my pain
You know how I struggled to not go insane
You know how I think, you know how I feel
You know how I hate, you know what was concealed
You knew what to do when I felt all alone
You know how I felt deep down to the bone,
I wish for you to see life through my eyes
How I struggled to live, how I struggled to cry
But now I must end with a regretful sigh
And to all those who care,
This is my final goodbye.
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Here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded...you don't see me.