Infer

[gone~away]

How did i get here tonight?
What am i doing here?
How did i reach this state?
How did i lose my sight?
I'm lost, i'm freaking, and everybody knows...... Everyone's watching
So here, are my hopes and aspirations... nothing but puke...
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The time, when the operation of the machines becomes so odious. That you are so sick at heart, you can't take part. You can't even possibly take part, and you've got to put your bodies upon the gears, the wheels, upon the levers. Upon all the aparatus and you've got to make it stop. And you've got to indicate to the people that run them, that own them, that unless you are FREE, the machines will be prevented from running at all.
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inside i'm gone,you knew that all along
without the distance you never get away
plastic bag image,is over now it's over now
the color fading is all the way to grey
we are strong but we're dumb,we look above
trusting the instinct,is not about what you think
the one reaction is only to obey
and i'm staring,all around not far down
judge the distance from the ground and pray
we are strong but we're dumb, we look above
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Leaving flowers on your grave, to show that i still care. Black roses and hail maries, can't bring back, what's taken from me.
I reach, to the sky, and call out your name, and if i could change, i would.
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You make believe that nothing is wrong until you're cryin'.
You make believe life is so long until you're dyin'.
You make believe that nothing is wrong until you're cryin', cryin' on me.
You make believe that life is so long until you're dyin', dyin' on me!!
you think everybody is the same.
I don't think that anybody is like you.
You ruin everything and you kept fuckin' with me until its over and I wont be the same

End

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Face Down, Arms Out
Nailed To The Cross of Doubt
Blood Runs Like Rain
Drowning For This World In Vain

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[This message has been edited by gone~away (edited 01-14-2001).]

[gone~away]

nope.. nary a mind altering substance has entered my body since new years eve

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[MuffyTheVampyreLayer]

Hell, now I'm REALLY depressed.

Somebody post some happy shit.

G/A - Is that your own stuff or just something you really liked?

[gone~away]

a bunch of different song lyrics that i felt i should share....

i don't know for what purpose.. i just thought i should..

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[MuffyTheVampyreLayer]

Whatever happened to 'if your happy and you know it clap your hands'???

[gone~away]

<font face="Verdana, Arial" size="2">Originally posted by MuffyTheVampyreLayer:
Whatever happened to 'if your happy and you know it clap your hands'???</font>

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[zoey]

Breathe in right away, nothing seems to fill this place
I need this every time, take your
lies get off my case
Some day I will find, a love that flows
Through me like this
This will fall away, this will fall away

You’re getting closer, to pushing me
Off of life’s little edge
Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later
You know I’ll be dead
You’re getting closer, you’re holding the
Rope and I'm taking the fall
Cause I’m a loser, I’m a loser

This is getting old, I can’t break these chains that I hold
My body’s growing cold, there’s nothing left of this mind or my soul
Addiction needs a pacifier, the buzz of
This poison is taking me higher
This will fall away, this will fall away

You’re getting closer, to pushing me
Off of life’s little edge
Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later
You know I’ll be dead
You’re getting closer, you’re holding
the rope and I’m taking the fall
Cause I’m a loser


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I loved you, we could have been together, think about it
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you DREAM (http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/wishlist/2V8Q3IB8F9B0X/ref=wl_em_to/107-2865667-5707752?add-fav=1) about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM (http://mangled.org) about it
I hope your conscience eats at you and you can't BREATHE (http://engine09.com) without me

[This message has been edited by zoey (edited 01-15-2001).]

[Mudflap]

<font color=yellow>Well I won't back down
No, I won't back down.
You can stand me up at the gates of Hell,
but I'll stand my ground.

---Tom Petty</font color>
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<font color=limegreen>You damn right.

---Issac Hayes</font color>

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<font color=orange>Me. And you and you and you.
Simultaneous lovin'!!!

---Chef</font color>

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I felt the need to add some of my own inspirational lyrics. Being all dark and introspective has got to suck.

Yes, that was a stab at two mods posting on this thread. I'll suffer the consequences, but I won't be silenced. (see Tom Petty lyric)

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[Strider]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by zoey:
Breathe in right away, nothing seems to fill this place
I need this every time, take your
lies get off my case
Some day I will find, a love that flows
Through me like this
This will fall away, this will fall away

You’re getting closer, to pushing me
Off of life’s little edge
Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later
You know I’ll be dead
You’re getting closer, you’re holding the
Rope and I'm taking the fall
Cause I’m a loser, I’m a loser

This is getting old, I can’t break these chains that I hold
My body’s growing cold, there’s nothing left of this mind or my soul
Addiction needs a pacifier, the buzz of
This poison is taking me higher
This will fall away, this will fall away

You’re getting closer, to pushing me
Off of life’s little edge
Cause I’m a loser and sooner or later
You know I’ll be dead
You’re getting closer, you’re holding
the rope and I’m taking the fall
Cause I’m a loser

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You know what I would love to do? I would love to be there on the edge of a cliff with whoever is feeling that way, whimpering and wining about their life...admitting that they are losers (or so they think) etc. I would love to hand them a rope, fasten a safety catch to them, and kick them right the fuck over the edge. I would then sit there and talk to them about their life as they are screaming with the realization of their situation and how much peril they are in. I would love to wait for them to stop openly sobbing and begging...wait for them to start gasping for air as their chest heaves...and start talking to them about their life. "Do you have any kids? Do you have any family? Do you have a mother and/or a father? Sisters? Brothers? I would ask them to tell me of the wonderful times they had with them...tell me the wonderfull times they had with there friends...all the things that happened to them in their life that they deemed wonderful. How did their friends/family make them feel at those times when everything felt wonderful? Picture the smiles on their friends and family's faces...picture the laugh of thier little brother...the laugh of their mother...the innocent smile of their little sister... the innocence of their baby(ies) as they held them in their arms...or when they cried for a little cuddle and how it felt to them when someone needed them...needs them." Then I would tell them to imagine their best friend/most fond family member's lives snuffed out...right here...right now...at this very moment. "How do you feel about that? What makes you morn for this person? Is it their laugh? Their smile? Is it everything about them? Why does it make you cry? You don't care about them...well they thought you didn't...they offed themselves while wallowing in self pity. You do care about them? What would you do if I could turn back time...say five minutes from when they killed themselves...talk to them and tell them that you wanted to talk to them. Would you want me to do that? Would you want to plead with them and beg them to stay alive and stay your friend...you will do anything for them right?"
"Now...I want you to imagine that the tables have flipped. You are the one to go and you are leaving all of these people behind to cry for you...morn for you...and yes...some will probably hate you. You took yourself away from them...destroyed what you had between eachother...something that you would beg me to help you with if it were them...something you would plead with them not to do...cry to them not to do it. You have the choice now...You have the choice not to destroy these people...not to take away a piece of them and leave a gaping hole in their lives - leaving them empty. It is up to you to save these people their misery...their agony."

"Now, ready to die?"

I take the safety catch off of the rope now...leaving this person to dangle over this cliff...holding on only by their two hands. Let go...hurt these people. "This is choice time. Make an attempt to climb back up this rope, saving these people the agony and misery of what you would now do to them and I will help you by pulling you up the rest of the way...don't try and I'll kick your hands...knocking you the fuck off of this cliff. Would you let me hurt these people? Would you let me destroy their lives? Pretty please? You obviously don't care...and if you did...you'd try to come up here and stop me."

Scenario 1: The person reaches up a hand and I help them up. Depending on how I'm feeling at the moment, I either beat the piss out of them until they are a bloody pulp...wait for them to wake up...and then go tattle to their family, or I talk to them...help them...help them with what is wrong...get them to call family...follow up and make sure this person has seen how much grief they almost caused.

Scenario 2: The person lets go with both hands and kicks off of the cliff...swan diving for the bottom... Oh well... minus one loser.

Scenario 3: I might have put an additional safety catch on the rope and attached when they didn't see it. I reach forward and knock them the fuck out and follow through with Scenario 1...emphasis on the beatings.


I hate suicidal people, or even people that play with the idea. Sorry I wasted so much of your reading time with this muck. I just felt somewhat annoyed and inspired by this poem, bored, and felt like going off on a tangent. http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/smile.gif

I'll leave you alone now.

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[This message has been edited by Strider (edited 01-16-2001).]

[Faceplant]

inside i'm gone,you knew that all along
without the distance you never get away
plastic bag image,is over now it's over now
the color fading is all the way to grey
we are strong but we're dumb,we look above
trusting the instinct,is not about what you think
the one reaction is only to obey
and i'm staring,all around not far down
judge the distance from the ground and pray
we are strong but we're dumb, we look above

nice...i really dig that.

[gone~away]

finger eleven - above

download it

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