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07-18-2001, 03:33 AM
<font color=pink>I don't know why I'm posting this. I just feel so very alone with everything right now, I need to vent and I need some feedback. I just feel I'm about to burst. Just keep it here please, if that is even possible.
I have never been through so much in my entire life. These past 2 weeks have been hell on earth for me. It all started when I got home from D.C the last time. Gary and I had a wonderful trip, we got the apartment we wanted and things were finally coming together for us. It seems that everytime we try to further our relationship something comes between us. Not only do we live in two different countries, 501 miles away from eachother, family issues are involved also, which I can't get into.
It all started when I found out I was pregnant on June 25th. This was not a planned pregnancy and I won't tell you if I was happy or sad, or what we decided to do because I just don't want to. Anyway, I had planned to go see him shortly after that to tie up some loose ends with the school I will be going to. I went there for the weekend and that Saturday (July 7th) I had to go to the emergency room because I had started bleeding a lot. I stayed there for 8 hours and found that I was having a miscarriage. I had to go home that next day and on the Monday I had to go have a procedure done to make sure that all the tissue was out, so to speak.
This was a very dramatic thing to have happen to me, to us, and if that weren't bad enough, Gary, my boyfriend got in a really really horrible car accident that Friday morning.
His femur bone was crushed and his collar bone broken. He seemed like he was going to be ok, until today when they told him that he needed to have a blood transfusion.
Oh and I failed to mention that yesterday I was in a car accident as well. I rear ended someone.....
I am fucking going insane. I cannot take anymore heart ache. My body is at the point of exhaustion. The worst part, is that I can't be there with him. Plane tickets are aoubt $1,300 + and I really can't afford that. My parents are away for the week, I have to stay and take care of my sisters.... the list goes on and on. We might also lose the apartment as well if the papers aren't in by the 19th. I got the apartment people to fed ex the lease to him but he needs a notary to be there when he signs it, but he can't get out of his bed.... http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/frown.gif
He's in so much pain, I hear it in his voice.... I spoke to him while he was getting hsi blood transfusion, it was horrible. I try to be strong for him but I couldn't help it today and I broke down and he was the one who ended up consoling me...
When it rains it pours, but is it suppose to rain everyday?
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[This message has been edited by Kaye (edited 07-17-2001).]
I have never been through so much in my entire life. These past 2 weeks have been hell on earth for me. It all started when I got home from D.C the last time. Gary and I had a wonderful trip, we got the apartment we wanted and things were finally coming together for us. It seems that everytime we try to further our relationship something comes between us. Not only do we live in two different countries, 501 miles away from eachother, family issues are involved also, which I can't get into.
It all started when I found out I was pregnant on June 25th. This was not a planned pregnancy and I won't tell you if I was happy or sad, or what we decided to do because I just don't want to. Anyway, I had planned to go see him shortly after that to tie up some loose ends with the school I will be going to. I went there for the weekend and that Saturday (July 7th) I had to go to the emergency room because I had started bleeding a lot. I stayed there for 8 hours and found that I was having a miscarriage. I had to go home that next day and on the Monday I had to go have a procedure done to make sure that all the tissue was out, so to speak.
This was a very dramatic thing to have happen to me, to us, and if that weren't bad enough, Gary, my boyfriend got in a really really horrible car accident that Friday morning.
His femur bone was crushed and his collar bone broken. He seemed like he was going to be ok, until today when they told him that he needed to have a blood transfusion.
Oh and I failed to mention that yesterday I was in a car accident as well. I rear ended someone.....
I am fucking going insane. I cannot take anymore heart ache. My body is at the point of exhaustion. The worst part, is that I can't be there with him. Plane tickets are aoubt $1,300 + and I really can't afford that. My parents are away for the week, I have to stay and take care of my sisters.... the list goes on and on. We might also lose the apartment as well if the papers aren't in by the 19th. I got the apartment people to fed ex the lease to him but he needs a notary to be there when he signs it, but he can't get out of his bed.... http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/frown.gif
He's in so much pain, I hear it in his voice.... I spoke to him while he was getting hsi blood transfusion, it was horrible. I try to be strong for him but I couldn't help it today and I broke down and he was the one who ended up consoling me...
When it rains it pours, but is it suppose to rain everyday?
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[This message has been edited by Kaye (edited 07-17-2001).]