mute
11-10-2005, 02:39 PM
I just wrote a huge post pretty much about the future, what if's and being worried about what road to take.
And the thing is, everyone worries about that when it all comes down to it. There's no way to tell what could happen. No matter how hard you try to keep that 'vision' of what you're future will be like, there's no way in hell it will definately end up like it. Even if you work so hard to keep it like you want, you still can't predict what will happen.
I want to keep my girlfriend, grow with her. Work at getting a good paying job I could so easily get into right now, so she can feel secure and make a family with me. I would give all my other dreams up for that right now just to have that. I could take that path, I COULD. But why take a path and have a simple roll of the dice not end up in my favor? I could follow my dreams (which I am currently doing), end up with a shitty dice roll still and ponder on 'what if's?'. What if I settled down, and tried making a family with her? Would it have worked out?
To simply put it: I can't tell what will happen either way. And neither can you. And it really sucks.
You could say: "If you and her really want to be together, than no matter what we do should ever come between us". But ya know what, that is totally UNREALISTIC.
And the thing is, everyone worries about that when it all comes down to it. There's no way to tell what could happen. No matter how hard you try to keep that 'vision' of what you're future will be like, there's no way in hell it will definately end up like it. Even if you work so hard to keep it like you want, you still can't predict what will happen.
I want to keep my girlfriend, grow with her. Work at getting a good paying job I could so easily get into right now, so she can feel secure and make a family with me. I would give all my other dreams up for that right now just to have that. I could take that path, I COULD. But why take a path and have a simple roll of the dice not end up in my favor? I could follow my dreams (which I am currently doing), end up with a shitty dice roll still and ponder on 'what if's?'. What if I settled down, and tried making a family with her? Would it have worked out?
To simply put it: I can't tell what will happen either way. And neither can you. And it really sucks.
You could say: "If you and her really want to be together, than no matter what we do should ever come between us". But ya know what, that is totally UNREALISTIC.