Thanks.

[Mae]

It is the month of Turkey and Thanks.

I *try* say thanks to my friends and family during this time, I try to let them know that they are important to me and that I appreciate them.

Jared, thank you for your love, and for the word mullet.
Tami, thanks for being a soft landing place.
Angela, thanks for teaching me by example what NOT to do.
Roger, my midnight Whisky/Politicking buddy- Thanks.
Uncle Paul, thanks for the beer. :)
Amanda, thanks for letting me get to know you.
Seth, thanks for everything.
Dad, thanks for being proud of me.



Anyone else?

[Escape Artist]

i've been trying that myself as of late.

thanks, solstice, for putting up with my endless shite.

and you, kol, for having always been there. always. you're a fucking king, even if you refuse to wear the crown.

cruise, i appreciate you talking to me again after our big-ass fight, and advising me on a few things. perhaps in a few more years i'll have the wisdom and restraint for us to talk like equals.

billyman, i actually *like* your blunt perspective. i had a great time when i was in NC. that stripper had a nice little body, too. :) you rock, man. lemme have it out with anyone who wants to argue.

mudflap, you've always been a stable guy, a funny person, and someone who was never really interested in showing off their wisdom. anyone who has you as a friend or co-worker will be the better for it. oh, and fun times showering with you! (bwaaahahaha)

muffy, you've often been around and you've helped me out a lot more than you probably know. praise allah and pass the fish!

mute, i usually look at people and really don't like 'em by default, but you seem to actually give a shit, you care about people, and you're making something for yourself. you get a ten in my book. keep it up, man - and you can have her if ya want. :) don't quit dreaming, amigo.

barbie, sometimes your opinions are a little lacking, but you've always had the courage to offer a fresh perspective on things. that's respectable.

simon - i've put you through how much crazy shit so far? you've been a pretty damned good friend and mentor, and remarkably objective about my ramblings and horseshit. love ya, man. you're a great guy. i hope everything picks back up for you soon and you can enjoy the expat life or sommat. i enjoyed the yardwork, btw - but the palm trees leave much to be desired. hate fucking palm trees. :( what the fuck kind of tree evolves spiny things at the bloody top?

juliana - i'd kidnap you and put you in a tower like a bad novel plot, because you're that cool. try and avoid flipping more cars, k? :)

asmo, you're a crazy sumbitch, and you fucking amaze all of us sometimes. do what you love, man. never forget that particular goal. thanks for all the stories.

pianomahnn, yer my bish! you're a good guy, and you (like mute) seem to genuinely give a shit. i appreciate you writing me a program on the fly, and i hope your tenure as web-bastid here gives you some kind of street cred you can use later on.

morgana - you make me tremble in my damned boots still, and i'm used to the internet phenomenon crap...i don't know whether i should fucking congratulate you or demand that you be censored. you're witty as all hell, regardless.

-----

there's a lot more people i could thank, but most of them have left, or wouldn't listen, or just don't care either way. i remember all of you, and a lot of seemingly offhand comments have actually become lessons for me. i've been a shitty pupil, myself, but you all are golden. so - thanks. you've done a lot more good, each and every one of ya, than you'll ever see.

i hope you all do well.

[Koliedrus]

Although I appreciate the kudos, Jason, "King Kol" is a title I have no wish to carry around for the rest of my life. Nevertheless, that was one cooj post and I'm proud to be riding this roller-coaster with you.

The last time I was thankful for anything was...
There's one...
There's another.

Functional heart
Functional lungs
Functional brain (up to debate)

I'm thankful for all of the experiences associated with "existing".

A younger me once wrote a letter to this older me. In it, he described some of the emotional pain he was experiencing and expressed hopes that the older me's life was better than his.

I can't write a letter back to him. If I could, I would say:

"You're gonna like it up here in the future. Just hang tight. Tough things happen but you'll get through them. Just wait until you look into the eyes of your first child. And then your second.

The love that you think is lost will be returned and amplified.

You're gonna be a father! Your view of the world will change in the blink of eyes that aren't your own.

If you pull that trigger, I'll never speak to you again. Blowing a hole in your head will kill my children. Feel free to burn in Hell if you do.

Sincerely,

You"

But, I can't write to the past.
I'm thankful that I don't have to.
He figured it out on his own.

If you're reading this, I'm thankful for you circumstantially.

Thank YOU for being part of my life. I'll never be able to repay you but I'll try.

[mute]

Even though my Thanksgiving was a month ago, what the hell.

I haven't had much input here in a while. I've been busy and/or I dunno. I've run out of things to say maybe. Or maybe I think it's just one big circle still. I still want to talk about the things I came into here talking about. The mostly unanswerable question, but atleast speaking our minds. But it seems a lot of people have gotten bored with it, or maybe left. There still are people too, but mostly I've run out of things to say.... is that a bad thing?

I just sit and read an article someone has posted and nod my head and say "yep". I could go on about my life and relate it to the answerable questions but I don't have the time.

So yeah.... I've been busy.

Thanks to all though, I'll remember everything from the beginning. I've learnt so many things from you guys it makes me kinda feel weird for not learning EVERYTHING from 'real life'. I say 'real life' like that because this is pretty fucking real none-the-less, and it all represents the beginning of a new generation of people and technology. Good or bad? Who gaves a fuck, this was all great in my mind, even through all the bullshit that may have occured while here. This is my family on the net :)

You all kick ass :rockon: