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Cruise Director
09-03-2004, 01:41 AM
I never knew how she felt. Apparently my assumptions were wrong.
But, you know what they say about assumptions.

I never heard the words I love you. Apparently she was waiting for them too.
But, I only say it when I'm really sure.

I never pushed her forward with our relations. Apparently she wanted me to.
But, I don't like to be the pushy type of guy.

I never heard about the other guy. Apparently he appeared after I "left her."
But, I only thought of it as being relocated.

I never saw it coming. Apparently I was not in tune.
But, she did not give me any signs to follow.

I never got the announcement. Apparently she was too scared to tell me.
But, her friends were quick to call and console me.

I never thought to ask "thee" question. Apparently his ring fit her finger.
But, I know I'm not ready for that commitment anyway.

I never expected the call the night before. Apparently her feet grew cold.
But, it was unfair to tell me "if only you had..."

I never thought she'd go through with it. Apparently she wanted me there.
But, I couldn't bare the sight of her taking another man's name.


I always loved her. Apparently she felt the same way.
But, I guess it wasn't meant to be.

Mudflap
09-03-2004, 09:32 PM
Are you left wondering if you should have done things differently?

Are you thinking that in the future you will do things differently?

These experiences are worth reflection and examination, but please don't agonize over them. "Meant to be" and "what might have been" are created in ONE's mind.

It takes TWO to tango.

ms. bing
09-04-2004, 07:23 PM
it sucks. i feel ya on this one.
last week i found out that a very close friend of mine left without saying goodbye.
he knew what i thought about what he was going to do, because i knew how he really felt about her. apparently those feelings weren't enough to take that ring off her finger.
lack of cold feet, but a rather indifferent heart.
still, he could have at least called to say goodbye.
could have been? maybe. but if these people are capable of doing this, were they really the "meant to be" people?

Cruise Director
09-04-2004, 09:33 PM
After I talked to her the night before her wedding, I realized that the whole "this could have been us" statement she gave me was just her way to ease the situation. Blaming me for making the best move of my life puts some closure in it for her.

Do I regret the decision? Not really. I wonder what could have been but have come to grips with the fact that regret gets you nowhere. The only regret I have is the highschool sweetheart that I let get away. That one hurts to this day.

The sting will go away and I will find somebody else to light up my life. It's almost a sure thing.

skalie
09-05-2004, 11:57 AM
Women are evil, avoid them like the plague.

MuffyTheVampyreLayer
09-06-2004, 12:31 PM
I agree with skalie.